Post by sarahh on Jan 19, 2008 16:02:59 GMT -5
Luka always came up with the thought that they were just rushing. In high school you weren’t suppose to have a steady relationship, you weren’t suppose to fall in love with someone so much that when you felt your heart rip you wanted to vomit. You weren’t supposed to be in love with a boy who of course turned into a manwhore. It was too serious, all too quick, but Luka was fine with it. She barely understood why they weren’t still in love; still staying up at night till two- that wasn’t unusual- but still she missed those days. She would think of how he was her first everything, how when she felt her lips press against his for the first time she felt like everything would last forever. When he even took away her virginity she thought that they would be forever, and when they decided to break it off she went insane. She would keep crying, she would keep throwing around things and almost make herself go completely bald. It was all those feelings completely left her, and she would just go on her knees completely numb.
This, this right here was nothing compared to those nights. This was like a blast from the past, this was Luka and Cameron smiling and kissing each other the only thing that wasn’t here was the declaring of how much they loved each other. That was the only thing that she didn’t even register in her head just yet, this was the moment and this was blinded lust but it was accompanied by love as well.
The raven-haired girl always knew the love of Cameron she held. She knew he loved him and she showed more than once that she loved Cameron. He even once held her tightly and told her not to doubt that he didn’t love her that he always would. It stung like hell. It stung because she knew that she always wanted those feelings back, that she always wanted those feelings just for her. That she always wanted Cameron to love her and for her to love Cameron, but that was selfish. The sad thing was she clearly remembered the day she would tell Cameron she loved him for the last time. It was over the phone, and Luka was studying for some algebra test she needed to pass so she could raise her grade to an A- and it was nearing the time of three fifteen and she heard Cameron mumbling and yawning and she even heard him snore once or twice. Finding it quite amusing she laughed quietly, which had woken up the boy and she just told him to have sweet dreams a goodnight and that she loved him, she didn’t get an I love you back, but she closed her phone to quickly to listen anyway.
To be honest, Luka forgot that she had told him she loved him, well she didn’t exactly forget she said it, it was just pushed aside for the moment because she felt the feeling of his skin on her lips, and she couldn’t let go. She didn’t want this to be only a one-night thing, really she didn’t, but what if something happened between Allistar and her? She liked Cameron a bit more than Allistar because of everything they had been through and she knew Cameron could be a helpless romantic and she couldn’t even think of this now she really couldn’t. So she just pushed all serious thought behind.
The movement of her hips grinding against his, and his against hers grew only a bit heavier as she encouraged it, making it grow stronger by pressing rougher against his. Luka raised her head up feeling rather vocal she let out a moan that wasn’t too loud but not quiet either, and she looked down at him. As he told her he loved her too, she had to wonder if it was in the more than friend’s way or the just keep it at the friends level way. Looking down a bit dazed, she placed her head over cold pink flesh and nipped at the muscle that was on his strong chest.